Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Today is another new day...thank goodness!!

OK, let's try this again. A new day, a new clean slate, a new beginning to a continuation. (I think I just blew my own mind there for a moment!)

Managed to make myself a lunch this morning; it only took less than two minutes and didn't make me late for work (pfft to you, Harriet!).

8am - one Dannon Light & Fit yogurt, blueberry

Lunchtime - one Healthy Choice Fresh Mixers: Sesame Teriyaki Chicken w/rice - 380 cal, 6g fat, 69g carb (yikes), 13g protein; 1/2 cup lowfat cottage cheese, 1/2 cup fresh pineapple, one Jello Mousse in caramel (yum).

I will be honest again with my dinner selection tonight and will add it later.

The HCFM chicken meal was actually pretty good! I would probably buy it again, but it did give me burning tire poops about an hour after lunch. TMI? Tough.

I am not doing so great on the beverage side of things; I have a heart condition that includes an odd syndrome of not being able to detect thirst (may be a contributor to my weight issues, since I cannot distinguish thirst from hunger). I often go full 24 hour blocks of time without injesting any fluids at all. Not good. So, I think I will go fill up my stainless steel water bottle with the cool Chinese dragons on it and have some water. My throat is dry and I think that maybe, just maybe, I am thirsty this afternoon.

Well, I just can't figure myself out. Why can I do fine at work but when I get home I turn into some wild and crazy eating machine? Why? Why? Why???

I made myself a sandwich with Healthyloaf bread, mesquite grilled turkey breast and Havarti cheese; had one ounce (yes, I measured it on my food scale) of Doritos, and three mini dill pickles.

Then I had two more ounces of Doritos - I think; no, I didn't weigh this on the food scale.

Then I had a Butterfinger.

Then I had four chocolate covered graham crackers.

Well, at least most of the crap is out of the house now. I have four graham crackers left and then they are all gone.

Sheesh. I suck.

Monday, October 12, 2009

Food journal, etc. for Monday, 10-12-09

Well, here I go. The goal here is to be totally honest, no matter what.

Woke up late (as usual) this morning so I didn't get to pack the lunch I really wanted to. I was supposed to do it last night so that all I had to do was grab it and go, but no. I was too busy being very lazy yesterday; but I was determined this morning not to let it get me off track.

So far today I have consumed the following (will be added to throughout the day):

8am - one 6oz Dannon Light & Fit peach yogurt
80 cal, 0g fat, 16g carb, 5g protein

11am - still hungry, so I had one Quaker Instant oatmeal packet, Honey Nut
170 cal, 3.5g fat, 31g carb, 4g protein

For lunch, I had a Smart Ones frozen entree - baked chicken w/sour cream mashed potatoes; and one Jello Mousse cup, dark chocolate.

Beverages today:
48 oz water w/two Welches To Go Superfruit powdered drink packet
20 cal, og fat, o carb, o protein
OK, like I said, honesty is the key here; so I am going to be honest. I was very proud of my accomplishments as I left work, but I was craving these wonderful cream cheese and shrimp won-tons that they make at Montana Jack's. Harriet (my critical conscience - see other blog) starts in with her propaganda: ooooooo, don't they sound good? Can't you smell them? Just go have some on your way home. Just have some clam chowder or something with them instead of a big meal. You can just lie on your blog, no one reads it anyway. You can just start your new blog tomorrow and no one will ever know. You can start eating better tomorrow; what is one more day?

I told her to SHUT UP and told myself to picture some things that I desire MORE than those cream cheese and shrimp won-tons. I started picturing myself healthy, slimmer, riding a bicycle through a park, etc. The craving went away! I won!!

When I got home I was very proud of myself for overcoming Harriet's suggestions. I planned to make myself a sandwich for dinner a little later.

Skip to "a little later" and me cramming BBQ chicken wings and cold pizza slices leftover from the night before into my mouth instead of throwing them away. Skip to me eating at least six large chocolate covered graham crackers and drinking milk straight from the carton. Skip to me crying and belittling myself while Harriet enjoys the Dolphins vs. Jets game.

I also drank a Fanta strawberry soda to take my nightly meds with, along with about eight Doritos because the pills were sticking in my throat.


Friday, October 9, 2009

Another new chapter begins...finally!

I decided to make this new companion blog to keep track of my weight loss in a little more detailed manner. My other blog, Little Duplex on the Prairie, has everything in it; but this one will be dedicated to strictly weight loss related stuff. I will keep food journals here, track my weigh-ins here, maybe post a yummy receipe or two here. I will also post progress pictures here. Wish me luck!!