Back in the saddle, again

Well, I haven't been blogging lately because I haven't been doing anything worth talking about. I'm sorry to all of you that were hoping to be inspired, or encouraged, when they saw this blog; hoping that you would be able to relate to someone who is struggling with the same things you are. I just haven't been trying; I've been spending a lot of time feeling sorry for myself, blaming everything under the sun for my problems, etc.

So, I am done with that and am ready to start again where I left off.

As punishment - or atonement, I'm not really sure which - I have taken some pictures to use as my "before" inspiration. They are horrible, no? Yes. They are. Which is the point. Sometimes I am very deep in denial (the complete absence of mirrors in my home is testament to that) I forget that I have a huge weight problem. It isn't until I see myself as others see me that I realize how big my problem is. No pun intended.

I dug out my Biggest Loser cookbook and am trying to follow their guidelines for nutrition; I am basing my total calories for the day on their formula of (your weight) x 7 = total calories for the day. If you weigh more than 300 lbs - like me - you use 300 as your weight; the same if you weigh less than 150 lbs - use 150 as your weight. I did well today, using only about 1905 of those calories. However, if you translate what I ate today into WW Points, I was over by about 14 points. It may not be quite that bad because I had to guess on the calorie content and WW Points values of two home made date cookies I had at work.

So, wish me luck, send me skinny vibes, etc. and I will keep going. I DON'T WANT TO LOOK LIKE THIS ANYMORE!!!!

TTFN.